Thursday, July 3, 2014

Ring My Chemo Bell!

Yesterday was monumental for me.
I got to ring the chemo bell!
I've been waiting for months to finish my scheduled chemo treatments and ring that bell!
And ring it I did! All around the infusion center!
As amazing as it was, I still live under a cloud of uncertainty, which clouds my joy.
Next Wednesday I have a series of scans and doctor appointments to figure out the next steps.
First, the breast MRI to determine how big the lumps in my breast are now.
We know they've shrunk by feel, but that's not an exact science.
Second I meet with the radiation doctor. He determines the course of radiation.
Third I receive a CT scan on my liver. This is the source of my anxiety.
If there are liver lesions that have not been killed by the chemo, I will need more.
Chemo is hard. I have been on a very aggressive regimen and it is painful and debilitating.
I had myself set up mentally to endure the prescribed course, and I just don't want any more chemo!!
I am hoping and praying that the liver lesions are gone and I will be able to go forward.
I know that radiation and surgery won't be pleasant either, but they will be the next step.
More chemo feels like I'm stuck. Like I'm not as close to being well and healthy and strong.
I know that my timetable is not the same as the Lord's.
I have learned before that His ways are not my ways, and His ways are best.
But I still pray that our wills meet up with no more chemo.
Please pray my friends. I have never met more faith and love than before this trial.
Your support has kept me going and is more important to me than you will ever know.


cherished bliss said...

You will constantly be in my prayers!! I am so encouraged by your faith! You are truly a strong woman of God! May peace be over you these next few days as we patiently wait for God's will to shine through for you!

Admin said...

I am praying..praying everyday for your healing.

Miriam said...

You've passed the first big hurdle! Congratulations! (I'll bet you're their favorite patient.) I'm praying for you each day, too. Love you!

MaryAnne Wendt said...

Yay!!! So happy to hear! XOXO

WendyfulWorld said...

Jaime, I think of you and pray for you often. You have shown so much courage and I am so inspired by your positivity! Lots of love and hugs!

Slice of Pie said...

Hold the faith and stay strong. You are in my prayers ... I'm a cancer survivor and I know how difficult it is to get up everyday and be thankful ... but you have to do that. Just trust.

The Happy Creations said...

Such an inspiring attitude!!What a spirit!!
That's how we should be, positive.
Thank you!!
You are in my prayers:):)

Teresa B said...

I'll be praying for more good news. You are an inspiration to us all.

Unknown said...

Oh Jaime! Congrats on ringing that chemo bell!!! I went through 4 months of chemo at age 16 (about 12 years ago) for Hodgkin's Lymphoma. I vividly remember that last round of chemo and the fear of the unknown and whether I'd need more. I, too, just wanted to be done.

I'm praying for you - that your wishes will align with the Lord's and that you can move on to radiation!


andrea @ tideline quilts said...

Hi Jaime, My prayers are with you and your family. I think your courageous energy is going to go a long way to positive results - my mother is battling liver cancer and has a great attitude too, and it has greatly helped her (according to her oncologists). Hoping along with you that your chemo is over, and that any remaining cells can be treated another way (or better yet, that they are all gone, and gone for good). Take care. - Andrea

LA Paylor said...

Like all the others, I pray for your recovery and good health. You have been so strong...
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Mindie Hilton said...

You are so cute in the video. I am sure sending love and prayers, and no more chemo wishes your way. I just finished my radiation, I am sure it will be a piece of cake compared to the chemo. It just made me tired, some needle pin like feelings for the last few days, they said was nerve damage feeling, and now shedding new skin phase has set in. Each time my skin peals, I get closer to my normal pale color. You are my hero. If you need to talk, vent, just dump it on me. I will totally understand. Hugs Mindie May

springs222 said...

Congratulations on ringing the bell!!! So happy for you! I hope you start to feel better very soon

Unknown said...

Best wishes for a speedy recovery! We will pray for no more chemo as well!

Marlo said...

I've prayed and thought of you often :) may you feel his strength and peace!


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